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The morning arrived wrapped in a haze of pale gold sunlight, soft enough not to sting, warm enough to seep into the bones. The bedroom was quiet save for the slow, synchronized rhythm of their breathing and the faint, distant crash of waves against the shore. Shane was the first to stir, a tiny, sleepy frown creasing his forehead before recognition softened his features.
He was home.
Tahir’s arm was still slung securely around his waist, holding him close as if afraid he might vanish if he let go. His chest rose and fell steadily beneath Shane’s cheek, a constant, reassuring thud that had long ago replaced the anxious pounding of Shane’s own heart during sleepless nights. The faint, earthy-and-salt scent of him clung to every fiber of the sheets, embedded in the pillows, woven into the very air they breathed. It was no longer just a scent. It was safety. It was belonging. It was home.
Shane lifted his head slightly, careful not to jolt the man still sleeping beside him, and let his gaze drift over Tahir’s face. Even in the unguarded stillness of slumber, there was a quiet strength to him—a sharpness in the line of his jaw, the dark sweep of his lashes against his cheek, the faint, silvery mark peeking out from the collar of his sleep shirt. That mark. The one Shane had given him. The mirror to his own. A promise carved into skin.
Mine, Shane thought, the word soft and reverent in his chest.
As if hearing the quiet thought, Tahir’s eyelids fluttered, then slowly opened. Dark, deep eyes immediately found his, softening from the haze of sleep into something infinitely warm, infinitely fond. The corner of his mouth tugged upward in a lazy, sleep-thick smile.
“…You’re staring again,” he murmured, his voice rough and low, sending a faint shiver down Shane’s spine.
Shane felt his cheeks warm, but he didn’t look away. “Can’t help it,” he replied, just as quietly. “You’re too hard not to look at.”
Tahir’s smile widened, bright and unguarded in a way he showed almost no one else. He shifted, rolling slightly toward Shane, pulling him even closer until their bodies were pressed fully together, chest to chest, leg to leg. There was no space left between them. No pretense. No walls. Just two people, completely bare to each other in every way that mattered.
“Good,” Tahir said, his thumb brushing gently, reverently, over the mark on Shane’s neck. “Then look all you want. I’m yours to look at. Always.”
Shane’s throat tightened. He leaned forward, pressing his forehead against Tahir’s, their breaths mingling in the small, warm space between them. The world outside the bedroom walls faded away completely—the passing cars, the distant seagulls, the quiet hum of life. All that existed was this: the weight of Tahir’s gaze, the warmth of his skin, the steady thrum of their bond humming softly in Shane’s chest.
“I don’t deserve you,” Shane whispered, the words slipping out before he could stop them, raw and honest and a little vulnerable.
Tahir’s expression softened, pained and gentle all at once. He tucked a strand of messy, sleep-tousled hair behind Shane’s ear, his touch so light it might have been a feather.
“Don’t say that,” he said firmly, but his voice was soft, insistent. “You don’t have to deserve being loved. You just have to let me love you. And I will. For as long as you’ll let me.”
Shane closed his eyes, letting the words sink in, letting himself believe them, if only for this moment. He tilted his chin up, silently asking, and Tahir didn’t hesitate. He leaned down, pressing a slow, soft, unhurried kiss to Shane’s lips. It wasn’t fiery. It wasn’t desperate. It was steady. Sure. Eternal. The kind of kiss that said I’m here. I’m not leaving. You are loved.
When they pulled away, both a little breathless, Shane rested his head on Tahir’s shoulder, listening to the steady beat of his heart.
“…What time is it?” he mumbled.
Tahir lifted one arm slightly, squinting at the tiny clock on the nightstand. “Almost nine,” he said.
Shane hummed, nuzzling closer. “We should get up,” he said, but he made no move to do so. “You have that thing with the fishermen today. And I have… paperwork.”
Tahir’s arms tightened around him, a faint, mock-frown pulling at his brows. “Paperwork can wait,” he declared, as if he was decreeing law over the ocean depths. “The fishermen won’t mind if I’m a little late. And you…” He pressed a soft kiss to the top of Shane’s head. “You are more important than all of it.”
Shane laughed softly, a quiet, breathless sound that vibrated against Tahir’s chest. “You’re impossible,” he said.
“I’m yours,” Tahir returned, instantly, without a single second of hesitation.
Shane smiled into his shoulder, warm and content and completely at peace. For a little while longer, they just lay there, wrapped in each other, letting the morning unfold slowly, gently, without rush, without demand, without anything but the quiet, perfect joy of being together.
When they finally did emerge from the bedroom, the apartment was flooded with golden morning light, turning the wooden floors to honey and gilding the edges of the furniture. The faint, salt-tinged breeze drifted in through the open kitchen window, carrying with it the clean, fresh smell of the ocean after a calm night. Shane made a beeline for the coffee maker, his movements automatic and familiar, while Tahir leaned against the counter, watching him, completely unapologetic about his staring.
Shane could feel his gaze like a physical warmth against his back, and he tried—and failed—not to smile.
“Stop looking at me like that,” he said, measuring coffee beans into the grinder.
“Like what?” Tahir asked, his tone innocent, but the smile in his voice was impossible to miss.
“Like you’re still trying to convince yourself I’m real,” Shane replied, his own voice light, teasing.
Tahir pushed off the counter, closing the distance between them in two long strides, coming up behind Shane and wrapping his arms securely around his waist. He rested his chin on Shane’s shoulder, his breath warm against the side of his neck, and pressed a soft, lingering kiss to the mark just below his ear.
“Because I still do,” he admitted, quietly, sincerely. “Some mornings, I wake up and I think the island, the crash, you… all of it was just a dream. A very beautiful, very desperate dream I made up to stop being alone.” He paused, his hold tightening slightly, as if afraid Shane would indeed dissolve into thin air. “But then you wake up, and you smile, and you yell at me for burning toast, and I know. You’re real. You’re here. You’re mine.”
Shane’s heart swelled, so full it felt like it might burst through his ribs. He turned in Tahir’s arms, facing him, wrapping his own arms around his neck and staring up at him, his eyes bright and soft and unguarded.
“I’m real,” he whispered, echoing the words back to him, a promise. “I’m here. I’m yours. Forever.”
Tahir’s gaze darkened, soft and warm and infinitely deep. He leaned down, kissing him deeply, thoroughly, as if he was trying to memorize the shape of his lips, the feel of his breath, the very essence of him. The coffee grinder sat forgotten, the unbrewed coffee a distant thought. Nothing existed outside this kiss, outside this moment, outside this love.
When they finally pulled apart, Shane’s cheeks were flaming, his lips slightly swollen, his eyes dark and soft. He rested his forehead against Tahir’s, trying to catch his breath, trying to ground himself in the overwhelming warmth of the moment.
“…Coffee,” he mumbled, finally, reluctantly breaking the spell.
Tahir laughed, a low, warm, rumbling sound that Shane felt more than heard. “Coffee,” he agreed, but he didn’t let go. Not yet. Not ever.
Breakfast was a quiet, messy affair—slightly burnt toast that Shane insisted on eating anyway, perfectly runny fried eggs, fresh strawberries that Shane fed to Tahir one by one, laughing when Tahir’s tongue deliberately brushed his fingertips. They ate standing up, leaning against the counter, their shoulders pressed together, their knees brushing, no need for words, no need for noise. Just quiet comfort. Just familiarity. Just them.
Afterward, Shane disappeared into the bedroom to change into clean clothes for the day, pulling on a soft, well-worn sweater and a pair of comfortable jeans. When he emerged, Tahir was leaning against the wall by the front door, already dressed, holding a thick, soft scarf in his hands.
He held it out silently.
Shane smiled, stepping closer, tilting his chin up. Tahir’s fingers were gentle, careful, as he wrapped the scarf around Shane’s neck, tucking it in neatly, his touch lingering slightly on the skin just below his jaw.
“It’s cold outside,” he explained, even though Shane already knew. Even though it was just an excuse to touch him a little longer.
“Thank you,” Shane said, soft.
Tahir’s thumb brushed gently over his cheek. “I’ll be back early,” he promised. “I won’t stay long with the fishermen. I want to be home. With you.”
Shane’s heart felt light. He stood on tiptoe, pressing a quick, sweet, good-bye kiss to Tahir’s lips. “I’ll be here,” he said. “Waiting.”
Tahir held him for a moment longer, just holding him, memorizing the feel of him, before he finally, reluctantly pulled away. He opened the front door, stepping out into the bright morning, then paused, turning back to look at Shane, a soft, endless smile on his face.
“Forever,” he called, quiet but firm, across the small space between them.
Shane smiled, warm and bright and sure. “Forever,” he echoed.
The door closed softly.
The apartment was quiet without him, but it didn’t feel empty. It felt full—full of his scent, full of his warmth, full of the quiet, unshakable love that lingered in every corner, in every piece of furniture, in every breath Shane took.
Shane stood there for a minute, just listening to the quiet, a soft, permanent smile on his face. Then he turned, walking back toward the living room, toward the stack of paperwork waiting on the coffee table, and for the first time in his life, work didn’t feel like a burden.
It felt like a small, ordinary part of a life that was so perfectly, beautifully happy.
And he couldn’t wait for Tahir to come home.
