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根据结尾，应该指的是M新生的精神，那个由Stephen/F帮他一起孕育的新的精神。是个女孩儿。
"Come away—let them die out—let them die out." Surely that dream was a vision! 不知是哪个梦。旁白怀有的是那个离开英国的梦吧
To-night also he hurried to the window—to remember, with a smile, that Orion猎户座 is not among the stars of June.
夏天的星座梗，
"Let me die out. She will continue," he murmured, and in making plans for Stephen's happiness, fell asleep.
Stephen指责Ricky让他伤心了。我发现，每当那两人中有一个表现出软弱的时候，一定没有第三方在场。在有第三方在场的时候，两个傻孩子会生气，会吵嘴，会听对方说话，但绝不会软弱。但只有两个人在一起的时候，总能看到一些比较柔软的东西，很温和温柔的感觉。
（Stephen说）you've hurt something most badly in me that I didn't know was there."
"Don't let us talk," said Rickie. "It gets worse every minute. Simply say you forgive me; shake hands, and have done with it."
"That I won't. That I couldn't. In fact, I don't know what you mean."
Ricky继续说，但我总觉得这不大像M说话。
"I warn you to stop here with me, Stephen. No one else in the world will look after you. As far as I know, you have never been really unhappy yet or suffered, as you should do, from your faults.
Last night you nearly killed yourself with drink. Never mind why I'm willing to cure you. I am willing, and I warn you to give me the chance. Forgive me or not, as you choose. I care for other things more."这行倒有点像M。
Stephen looked at him at last, faintly approving. The offer was ridiculous, but it did treat him as a man.
"Let me tell you of a fault of mine, and how I was punished for it," continued Rickie. "Two years ago I behaved badly to you, up at the Rings. No, even a few days before that. 所以在4小时7分钟和那个拥抱之前，其实就已经出事了。我就觉得很奇怪，以M的谨慎和F在M心中的分量，不应该明显做出这么大条的事情。这也与Maurice中的那个变化顺序相合。
We went for a ride, and I thought too much of other matters, and did not try to understand you. Then came the Rings, and in the evening, when you called up to me most kindly, I never answered. 对的，在那时候，Stephen/F曾经深情地呼唤过M，结果Ricky/M没理他，还躲开了。原来是晚上呢，看着以为白天呢。
But the ride was the beginning. Ever since then I have taken the world at second-hand二手货. I have bothered less and less to look it in the face—until not only you, but every one else has turned unreal. 开始逃避世界了。
Never Ansell: he kept away, and somehow saved himself.是指F不在的那一年吧。 But every one else. 所以开始逃避所有人了。废话，那么压制潜意识，不这样才怪。