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a new symbol for the universe, a fresh circle within the square. Within the square shall be a circle, within the circle another square, until the visual eye is baffled视力模糊. Here is meaning of a kind. 某种东西的意义His mother had forgotten herself in him. He would forget himself in his son.
这个东西在我眼里，是爱，而不是生命，因为开篇时说过，it is in the middle of everything. 这句话也说明M的妈已经对儿子没有爱了，何其残忍。估计Failing是M的妈。
Ricky孩子腿瘸，夭折。
Cpt22
Varden/M的精神，信是Stephen/F爱的宣言啊
Varden受人欺负，生病住院，痛苦却还宣称要爱世人，要原谅世人。跟前文第三章，要发现美，爱世人的Ricky说的话倒是一模一样。
Ricky去看他。
Varden明明很痛苦，却有God影响的“善良”人们写信给他，劝他原谅和爱自己的敌人。我看着简直都要说放屁了。
Stephen倒是一语中的，你可以打他们，还击。跟前文第三章，Ansell说其实Ricky你讨厌的人多着呢，你只是装着不讨厌他们。倒是一样的一针见血。
Dear A.C. Varden,--
I ought to say that I never remember seeing you. I am sorry that you are ill, and hope you are wrong about it. Why did you not write before过去不写信, for I could have helped本可以帮助 you then? When they pulled your ear, you ought to have gone like this (here was a rough sketch).还击
I could not undertake praying无法祈祷就知道是谁啦, but would think of you instead, if that would do。。
I write all this because you have mixed me with some one else, for I am not married, and do not want to be.
I cannot think of you always, but will promise a quarter of an hour daily (say 7.00-7.15 A.M.), and might come to see you when you are better--that is, if you are a kid, and you read like one. I have been otter-hunting—抓水獭
这水獭梗，我还真是不明白啊
---孩子梗就是暗示Ricky/Varden未来意识的新生
Yours sincerely,
Stephen Wonham
每天想你一刻钟，看着都为那个傻孩子心酸。
Cpt23
Agnes/F, Ricky/M的精神，Emily/F,这里倒是不用Failing姓了，这倒是可以与神，或者M母亲相区别开。
所以老Em’ly指的确实是F自己